lucid: easy to understand, suffused with light, vivid
I've been having trouble sleeping lately, surprise surprise! Sort of half-sleeping, where I never reach deep REM. Makes for lucid and realistic dreams.
take for example...
I thought I saw you at Burger King, but it was just a dream. You know the one, it's right next to Wallmart and your school. You were standing there, in the longest line, arrogantly aloof, attractive in your own stupid way. I watched for a few minutes. Nothing significant happened. Your phone buzzed and you looked at it discreetly. You slipped your hands into your pockets and leaned back onto your heels. Then you smirked and drug your feet a few steps forward to close a gap in the line. Just little things. Weird but, this was the you I once knew. I stopped watching when you got to the counter and gave your order. Shrugging my shoulders, I turned to leave. As I was pressing my way out the tinted glass door, you approached me. But it wasn't the you I knew. This "you" was different. Significantly less attractive and much more gregarious. We stood there awkwardly for awhile. I complacently listened to you tell me all the things I once wanted to hear. I should have been happy, right? I wasn't. "You" just confused me more. Who was really the ugly one? The you standing in line or this new "you." I woke up longing for authenticity and truth.
Apparently,
I still can't shake you off my conscious,
too many stubborn thoughts and mulish memories,
although better than the tears,
I bang my head and shake my ears,
no matter the ferocity, they simply won't fall out
stuck, like water from the poolso clear, they were once invisible,
now a murky chlorine green,
almost gone, I was wrong,
they're slowly seeping back while I sleep.
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