7/24/14

residual

residual: remaining after the greater part or quantity has gone

Sometimes little wisps of past grudges remain with me. They have a faint and fleeting effect.

 

The Passive Aggressive Note

What is this scrap of paper here?
a note?
read it, read it, um hm, um hum
what could it possibly connote

Ah ha, of course
I show no remorse
You can take your note
and shove it
write some bad poetry. Just absolutely love it!

Wildest

I've torn my shirt off, Lord of the Fly's style
like a savage child, a billowing roar, and then a cough
it's been awhile
but I have something to say
anyway

no one will ever know the monsters in your head and the gremlins in your heart
...as intimately as you do
my emotions now bustling like an overcrowded zoo
that’s why I said fuck it, why bother even trying to meet them, greet them
they’re yours; your only true friends
chained to your heart and your head in grouped tens

one day, maybe, one day we’ll invite them out to play
we’ll tell them to sit in multiple different styles of chairs
watch and see the real extent of how much I cared
we’ll invite them to a duel
we’ll play by brand new rules
 it will be a fight to the death
until one of us takes our last breath

just you and I
let them eat their Denny's pie
the show will begin
rin tin tin
both of us alone
the crowd of monsters and gremlins will grown

armed with just a brim-full milk jug
a wall of rubbery white liquid will hit your mug
down you will fall
your empty body, I will continue to maul
crunch crunch crunch
I’ll take my boot and stomp in your small skeleton
your sham life, no longer you will be able to run
no blood in this bath
but alas, your monsters and gremlins will finally see my wrath

7/8/14

optical

optical - relating to sight, especially in relation to the physical action of light

A long while ago I dropped my favorite slr (film) camera lens. I cried. Honestly, I blubbered.

To cheer myself up, I then decided to buy a digital camera. Along the way, however, I got frustrated at the digital camera because it just flat-out wasn't my t-50. I took that loss pretty hard. So, out of frustration, I sold it. The digital camera, that is.

 
I'm not sure what I was thinking. Maybe I was trying to stick it to technology, really teach technology a lesson. Maybe I was trying to fill a void. I'm not sure.

Jump ahead a few dry, picture-less years and I find myself unwrapping a Christmas present from the bf. He got me a new slr lens. Fancier then the one I broke before. But not too fancy.

It took me a little time to warm up to this new lens. But recently, I have been back in action, shooting film again. Back doing something I nearly forgot that I love.

Upon this recent revival, I've been thinking about why I love it so and what it is I want to accomplish with it. There is a quote from Anne Leibovitz that talks about how crucial emotional content is to photography...about how photos should have a poignant impact and how they should remain in the viewer's heart.

And that, my friends, is why I love it and what I aim to do with it -- take pictures that remain in the hearts of others, regardless of the subject or the technique.

A few things have changed in the hobby of photography since I petered out last. FYI, you can no longer buy 800 ISO film over the counter and flikr now allows 1 TB (that's right terabyte) of data storage. That sure beats the measly 200 free images they used to allot. Check it.