We've started a new tradition...holiday card 2015!
12/21/15
tradition
tradition: a belief or behavior passed down within a group or
society with symbolic meaning or special significance with origins in
the past
We've started a new tradition...holiday card 2015!
We've started a new tradition...holiday card 2015!
11/17/15
fete
fete: a celebration (n); honor or entertain lavishly (v)
Look at that, three years have passed! We went to the Red Feather Lounge and to see The Martian.
We were also celebrating Jesse meeting his goal for the NW NPC Fitness Show.
Look at that, three years have passed! We went to the Red Feather Lounge and to see The Martian.
We were also celebrating Jesse meeting his goal for the NW NPC Fitness Show.
11/11/15
ennui
ennui: a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of occupation or excitement
bored
staring at the scab on the back of my hand
darkish pink, flaky
it almost looks like a tiny grapefruit
too tiny to eat
I am bored
work piled high on my desk
every sheet of paper, every task mounting
building a tower of monotonous anxiety
I am beyond bored
I am nonfunctional
restless, my leg shakes
rhythmically bouncing up and down
I fantasize that seismic waves emanate from my foot
shaking all the earth
causing the walls to collapse, my cubicle to implode
nonfunctionally bored
if I have to run this same shitty dog and pony show continuously
I will murder myself
the phone rings
apparently
the pony got out and the dog is crying
dysfunctional
bored
staring at the scab on the back of my hand
darkish pink, flaky
it almost looks like a tiny grapefruit
too tiny to eat
I am bored
work piled high on my desk
every sheet of paper, every task mounting
building a tower of monotonous anxiety
I am beyond bored
I am nonfunctional
restless, my leg shakes
rhythmically bouncing up and down
I fantasize that seismic waves emanate from my foot
shaking all the earth
causing the walls to collapse, my cubicle to implode
nonfunctionally bored
if I have to run this same shitty dog and pony show continuously
I will murder myself
the phone rings
apparently
the pony got out and the dog is crying
dysfunctional
10/28/15
winsome
winsome: attractive or appealing in appearance or character
Furry Waylon. Isn't he the cutest thing?!
Furry Waylon. Isn't he the cutest thing?!
matriculation
matriculation: to enroll as a member of a body and especially of a college or university
Hi world.
Just wanted to check in and let you know that my degree plan was accepted and my project proposal approved. Officially my degree is now a MA in Informal Learning and Agency in Organizations, my project is going to be an ethnographic/communicative evaluation of the training/development model for referee certification within the Women's Flat Track Derby Association.
Took a year to sort all the parts out, but I am anxious (typical) and excited (aren't those the same thing?)!
Hi world.
Just wanted to check in and let you know that my degree plan was accepted and my project proposal approved. Officially my degree is now a MA in Informal Learning and Agency in Organizations, my project is going to be an ethnographic/communicative evaluation of the training/development model for referee certification within the Women's Flat Track Derby Association.
Took a year to sort all the parts out, but I am anxious (typical) and excited (aren't those the same thing?)!
8/26/15
white buffalo
white buffalo: something sacred and rare; also a talented roots/American country musician
Wider than the high dessert highway it stood atop, there it was, a giant ashy white buffalo not even 50 feet from the hood of my car. I don't remember stopping, I don't even remember getting to where I was, but I was not moving, engine barely rumbling, impeded by this mammoth creature's fortitude. Like an all too obvious symbol of my very own self doubt, it both terrified and calmed me. Determined, I put my car in reverse and backed up slightly. Turning the steering wheel slightly to the right, I felt the rubber of the tires scrape across the road, pushing a small amount of loose gravel aside. Shifting to drive, I let the car roll forward, to the right, out of the buffalo's path. But to my frustration, the buffalo took two steps right and directly in my way. I tried the same process to the left, but the buffalo took two steps to the left, blocking any effort to move beyond. After what seemed mythical and majestic eternity, the world's longest staring competition had just been won by the only white buffalo left in northern America. I had no choice, reluctantly, I backed up one last time, swung my car around and drove off in the opposite directed, headed back to where I had just come from. As the yellow dashes and toothpick trees rushed past me, the buffalo grew smaller and smaller in my rear view mirror. Confidence is not something that always propels you forward, into the future, but sometimes forces you to revisit the past. Do return, to do again.
Wider than the high dessert highway it stood atop, there it was, a giant ashy white buffalo not even 50 feet from the hood of my car. I don't remember stopping, I don't even remember getting to where I was, but I was not moving, engine barely rumbling, impeded by this mammoth creature's fortitude. Like an all too obvious symbol of my very own self doubt, it both terrified and calmed me. Determined, I put my car in reverse and backed up slightly. Turning the steering wheel slightly to the right, I felt the rubber of the tires scrape across the road, pushing a small amount of loose gravel aside. Shifting to drive, I let the car roll forward, to the right, out of the buffalo's path. But to my frustration, the buffalo took two steps right and directly in my way. I tried the same process to the left, but the buffalo took two steps to the left, blocking any effort to move beyond. After what seemed mythical and majestic eternity, the world's longest staring competition had just been won by the only white buffalo left in northern America. I had no choice, reluctantly, I backed up one last time, swung my car around and drove off in the opposite directed, headed back to where I had just come from. As the yellow dashes and toothpick trees rushed past me, the buffalo grew smaller and smaller in my rear view mirror. Confidence is not something that always propels you forward, into the future, but sometimes forces you to revisit the past. Do return, to do again.
8/12/15
glint
glint: give out or reflect small flashes of light
when the noise gets too loud
there is a way
a way to let the shrill din seep out
and the calm smooth wave of silence roll in
there is a way
a way that rips apart the thin black felt of the speaker
freeing the stampede of thoughts and emotions trapped inside
a way that lets the musical chaos spill over like a gushing river of crimson red
swiftly oozing out and away to a downhill destination
there is a way
a way for the speaker to be filled back up with fizzy pops and snugly epiphanies
like a gentle vacuum sucking up a rush of endorphins
this way brings instant warmth and ephemeral delight
I sit and watch, high, following this way
the way I've always known
as the blood drips down
ka-plop
onto the glinting, glorious razor
I am fine
I am better
I am alive
when the noise gets too loud
there is a way
a way to let the shrill din seep out
and the calm smooth wave of silence roll in
there is a way
a way that rips apart the thin black felt of the speaker
freeing the stampede of thoughts and emotions trapped inside
a way that lets the musical chaos spill over like a gushing river of crimson red
swiftly oozing out and away to a downhill destination
there is a way
a way for the speaker to be filled back up with fizzy pops and snugly epiphanies
like a gentle vacuum sucking up a rush of endorphins
this way brings instant warmth and ephemeral delight
I sit and watch, high, following this way
the way I've always known
as the blood drips down
ka-plop
onto the glinting, glorious razor
I am fine
I am better
I am alive
4/29/15
byte me
byte: unit of digital information in computing and telecommunications that most commonly consists of eight bits
bit me: (slang) leave me alone
If I could, I'd like to say "bite me" to school loans, second jobs, broken cars, high taxes, and just generally, being an adult. This past 6 months both Jesse and I have worked hard and made a lot of grown up decisions...some of those decisions have been harder than others. For example, working 50-70 hours a week is driving me completely batty, but I'll have a nice plum savings account at the end of the year. Additionally, getting the food budget in check has been nothing short of arduous. Luckily, Jesse has sharp culinary skills and I happened upon Budget Bytes, a phenomenal resource for eating healthfully and deliciously on the cheap.
I will try to keep up the writing, but if you don't hear from me, it's likely because this "adult" shit has caused me to have a complete mental breakdown and Jesse has checked me into the nearest infirmary. Come visit, they will probably have free coffee and cookies!
bit me: (slang) leave me alone
If I could, I'd like to say "bite me" to school loans, second jobs, broken cars, high taxes, and just generally, being an adult. This past 6 months both Jesse and I have worked hard and made a lot of grown up decisions...some of those decisions have been harder than others. For example, working 50-70 hours a week is driving me completely batty, but I'll have a nice plum savings account at the end of the year. Additionally, getting the food budget in check has been nothing short of arduous. Luckily, Jesse has sharp culinary skills and I happened upon Budget Bytes, a phenomenal resource for eating healthfully and deliciously on the cheap.
I will try to keep up the writing, but if you don't hear from me, it's likely because this "adult" shit has caused me to have a complete mental breakdown and Jesse has checked me into the nearest infirmary. Come visit, they will probably have free coffee and cookies!
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